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- posted by stef @ Thursday, May 19, 2005 |

 
10 cent drama
i wasn't accepted. or rather, i was fired as how my friends would call it in this year's summer encoding job opening at my school. (the only real job i've ever held) i always look forward to this part of the year for two reasons; for the money. and for the privilege of advanced enrollment. so sad, i must take an early retirement.

a failure i can easily recover from. no biggie. it's a low paying, stuck up job anyway. at least now i have more time to do what i really like instead of practicing on how to become an image oriented, corporate peon. i honestly think, she didn't pick me coz of how i look. as opposed to more realistic reasons like job performance and work area relations. but i don't know. perhaps she thinks of me as one of those types who appear to be working but finishes no work. a lazy bum scamming for easy money. or perhaps, to be blunt, she just hates me coz of me. sadly, i don't have enough "social engineering skills" to make a good impression. no. i won't even try going to her office to try to plead, and win her pity. imploring means bullshitting around. it's an uphill battle i wont even care to get into.

one day, i'll prove them all wrong. i'll show them that they fired the wrong guy. one day, i'll show them that i can work as good enough as anyone could. and even perform much better. one day, they would even say, "hey! i fired that guy once. i was too busy focusing on evident bad traits like his messy hairdo that i tried making criterias so that he won't get hurt when i finally slap his face with a well deserved rejection. i lost a goldmine." but still, i don't know. and perhaps, i'm just telling this to myself coz i just wouldn't accept the fact that i was fired

oh well, her decision is final and i must respect that... sooner or later. this is it for this entry. let me just add more to these resolutions of sadness and contempt that i'm feeling right now by ending with a song.

simple plan - untitled

how could this happen to me!!
i've made my mistakes!!
i've got nowhere to run!!
the night goes on
as i'm fading away!!

i'm sick of this life!!
i just wanna scream!!
how could this happen to me!!?

- posted by stef @ Saturday, May 14, 2005 |

 
oh the fine art of being simple minded
i visit the #cafesaco chatroom at irc.dal.net for, and only for, one reason. they always manage to do something to piss me off. innocently i guess.

let me elaborate.

the first thing you'll notice as you enter #cafesaco @ irc.dal.net is the (always) annoying chatroom topic. check out last night's scoop.

%%%%% Welcome to #CAFESACO!!! Watch The EUPHONIX Band At CafeSaco every Thursday & Sunday, and have the chance to Be an OP here courtesy of the *P-Master.* Just give ur nick to him at Cafesaco.. Be there at 9:30pm GRAND EB ON THURSDAY MAY 12, 2005 AT CAFESACO...BE THERE....%%%%%

adorned with bright colors just to get everyone's attention. luckily, i strip off irc colors. talk about shameless advertising. and i can't believe they're trying to lure people into watching some local band play by giving away channel operator status. it actually serves a two fold purpose, the one i just mentioned, and if you feel that it is just plain old advertising, the topic also serves as a silent invitation to even "more" people to visit their channel. why? because everyone who doesn't know better wants to have an @ sign in front their nicks. how vain of them. also, the sheer number of operators with respect to normal users is annoying. a 20 user chatroom doesn't need 15 channel operators.

secondly, and this is the most irritating thing happening there, is the fact that 99% of the chatters are script users. (don't look at me). yes. i know that irc scripts are a very nice addition to enhance the user's experience of chatting. but what i'm taking out here are useful features like keybindings and flood protection (even if the client supports this in-the-box) and some other stuff. if you've tried using the bitchx irc client you'll know what i mean. mind you, majority, if not all of them don't even know anything about the script's internals. they basically bought every dipshit description and feature and proceeded immediately to download ever script file from a warez site somewhere and pasted them in their clients.. and that's it. chatting glory at it's finest. my blood boils everytime i see texts like this:

<`peach> !trishakitten MYMP - Versions - 02 - Especially For You.mp3
<papait_pero> [Hearing: The Used-All That I've Got(Full Song).mp3]
<trishakitten> |- I have just finished sending Tool_-_Lateralus_-_01_-_The_Grudge.mp3 to CornBits 14 ! -|

do you really need to tell people what you're listening? moreover, do you really need to tell people that "hey! i just finished listening to this shit and now i'm changing songs". when everyone turns on a script that does this. the channel now becomes very dirty. lots of meaningless garbage on the screen. crowding with the conversation.

third in my list are nicks. listen, they are called "nicknames" for a reason. they're a short hand way of referring you. for all you "visual" people out there, check out these nicks, in bold: (and this is by no means the the complete set)

an_it_harm_none-do_as_ye_will (_eugene_@203.168.14.155)
[john|mahal|na|mahal|wawi] (boybato@203.215.103.209)
[BoLeRo|naglalaroMODE|] (Lycanz@210.213.90.62)
AILA_18[SEARChing] (hhjghrarhy@203.168.14.133)
[EM0STA^_^[KID_CAMEL] (~tua012001@210.213.143.87)

these examples also show another annoying thing they do. actually. by a convention of some sort, you state the situation you're in like this 'nickname[msg]' . therefore, if you wanna let people know you can't be reached, you change your nick to like "aleph1[afk]" which means "i'm away from my keyboard right now. or to be more informative and creative, something like aleph1[away].

fourth, and this is the second most irritating thing there is that it has recently become a hotbed for mp3 traders. why not just change the channel name to something more descriptive then, like #pirates ? or #zamboangaleechers

i plan to stop going there, but watching them make a total idiot out of themselves is a pretty addictive hobby. yes, it's cruel, bad and all that shit. but nevertheless, addictive.. just like marijuana and coca cola.

and lastly, yes, i know it's a free country.
- posted by stef @ Thursday, May 12, 2005 |

 
holy moly
i'm writing this blog entry coz i'm so mad and i have no other person to blame except myself.

writing a preliminary ebuild for serpentine-0.5, which is a gnome application for mastering audio cds, i have been struggling to resolve some buildtime and runtime dependency issues in order for it to work. that means i have to go to the super bleeding edge, but unstable branch of the portage tree. some packs are so friggin new and unstable that they aren't even in the official portage tree yet. and some are even hard masked.

anyway, i conclude that what i did was a fucking stupid move because of these facts:

1) i don't have a clue of what the hell i'm doing half the time, yet. i'm a beginner with ebuild making but that's only half the story.
2) i dont know how to use sandbox, yet.
3) i forgot to search bugs.gentoo.org for ebuild submissions of other people. (which is inexcusable, i know)

now blogtk segfaults everytime i try to "preview post". perhaps there are some obscure, brain-dead settings somewhere that screws things up.
- posted by stef @ Wednesday, May 11, 2005 |

 
when to believe and join in chain mails
yesterday, i recieved this.

(2005-05-06 18:45:01) [name hidden]: You've opened it!!!! Good Luck! Tonight at midnight your true love will realize they love you. Something good will happen to you at 1:00-4:00 pm tommorow, it could be anywere. Get ready for the biggest shock in your life. if you break this chain u will be cursed with relationship problems for the next 10yrs. post this within 15 min ...no harm in tryin..

wow. in this high tech year of our lord, two thousand and five ano domini, people still believe in pointless spamming to make wishes, dreams and good luck happen. well, perhaps these are all just jokes or silly past times, and perhaps you're now thinking that i should just chill and let it go. but the thought of satisfying the criteria of sending to a certain number of recipients or posting within a specified time limit, dictating what'll happen to your future is a complete nonsense for me.

so going back to the question, when must we actually believe and join in chain mails? never.

happy mom's day to all mommies and future mommies.
- posted by stef @ Sunday, May 08, 2005 |

 
untitled
today, our lpg (liquefied petroleum gas) tank ran out of juice. shit.

and ohh...happy birthday mom!
- posted by stef @ Thursday, May 05, 2005 |

 
milestones with jennylyn mercado
as the saying goes...

"april rain brings may flowers"
one year of blogging

this month of may, i've officially been blogging for one year already. happy anniversary to me. so to all who have been a part of my life, giving me the inspiration and desperation to write something in this blog. i thank you all. to all the trolls, thanks for your shameless, dickless, unwanted comments. and thanks for nothing. to my dad and family, just thanks. to all the girls and boys who come here often to read my bullshit, thank you very much for putting up with my profanity and emotional instability. i really appreciate your understanding and open mindedness.

to miss merissa hatalan, thanks for giving me reasons to study. you can always ask me for help. i won't fail you.

to miss lynlyn ang, thanks for all the support you gave me, my dear. for the spaghetti and for keeping me company in my most sorrowful, most embarrassing, most desperate moments. i want to marry you but you already have a boyfriend.

to miss ana abaa, again, thanks for keeping me company in my most sorrowful, embarrassing, most desperate moments. thanks for cheering me up. thanks for your guidance. thanks for texting me without any reason. you are too kind and i really admire you for that. i wanna marry you too, but you're much too hot for me.

to miss angel a.k.a "la femme nikita", thanks for being such a good friend. i hope i could at least shake the hand of the girl that gave me wonderful, enlightening conversations and counselling. you're truly an angel. stay true to your namesake always.

to miss denise, thank you for coming here often. you're my most loyal reader. losing you would break my heart. and lastly, "genius is nothing more than a successful effort of remembering".

to sir renen and the punks at the computer center, peace be with you guys. and thanks for reading my blog too.

to joset zamora, dino bansigan, ellery apolinario, wesley de asis, mawk santos, raffy bellen ... keep on rockin' my brothers! be happy always.

to sir espano, you've been a wonderful teacher. quick to notice both the good and the bad things in people, you showed me the flaws of being an ateneo student. being rude, being disrespectful, having too much pride. i'm guilty in all those accusations... that's why your lessons hurt me so much. i still refuse to accept some of your principles though. click here for related article

to ma'am ruth tabuniar, thanks for believing in me and my abilities.

to leo mark torralba, thanks for the stories dude. and the time, and the advices. you're a better teacher than experience.

most of all, to Miss Stephanie Torralba, i'm sorry about last year. i'm sorry i hurt your feelings. i'm sorry i was a jerk. hate me all you want. hate me from the bottom of your heart, but you'll always be my goddess and i'll always love you. as much as i try to forget and hate you, i really can't. i'll be forever grateful for the genuine friendship you gave me. please smile always, you're much too lovely to be frowning. click here for related article

to everyone i failed to mention.... society of the knights of ignatius, salt community, inigo youth organization, #gentoo@irc.freenode.net hackers, #boinc@irc.freenode.net chatters, ##c@irc.freenode.net programmers, #cafesaco@irc.dal.net pirates... to alfe, sherwin ascano, george bush, bin laden, john carmack, brebeuf GoonS, my pet dog einstein and others.. thanks a lot you guys.

last but not least, thank you god. for giving me enemies and friends.

without all you people, i wouldn't even be a third of the guy i am now.

my first gentoo bugzilla post

what have you done for free software today?
i submitted my very first patch. click here

and this is the page where i made my debut in the gentoo bug tracking community. click here.

if she is my girlfriend.. i swear i won't look at any other girl ever again.
- posted by stef @ Sunday, May 01, 2005 |

 
the penis and the vim
i dont know why. and i'm not motivated to find out either, (at least not yet), app-editors/vim, aside from being a top contender in the 'best text editor out there' holy war... is also rumored to encourage penis growth for under achievers. (see the gentoo forum) i've been using vim for some time already and i honestly think mine virtually looks much bigger now... i can't provide measurements though, much less some pictures.

it must be done with a girl's direct supervision.

yeah. doctor's orders.
- posted by stef @ Sunday, May 01, 2005 |